Across the will of nature
Lead on the path of God;
Not where the flesh delighteth
The feet of Jesus trod.
~Amy Carmichael
My goal is God Himself, not joy nor peace,
Not even blessing, but Himself, my God.
~Oswald Chambers
Lead on the path of God;
Not where the flesh delighteth
The feet of Jesus trod.
~Amy Carmichael
My goal is God Himself, not joy nor peace,
Not even blessing, but Himself, my God.
~Oswald Chambers
WARNING:the following is sappy reflections so if you don't like sappiness return to facebook :)
So I feel like all words I have been writing the last few months about living uncomfortably and facing anxiety will be things I will come face to face with in this next season of my life. I will be moving out of the beloved apartment 4. It is a lot harder than I ever expected. So much life has happened in this apartment. It is the first place I have called home since my parents house. Like when I'm on long vacations I long to come home to apt. 4. It's home, I decorated it with my roomies, I learned to cook here, I learned what being a good roommate and friend looks like, I became a real adult here. I learned to make more decisions on my own. I learned how to pay bills. I learned a deeper level of selflessness. I learned to clean a bathroom. (thanks natalie!) And many many more things. And over the last few years through every roommate change and learning all this, one amazing friend has been there the whole time. But now I have chosen to leave a place I call home and some wonderful roommates. I have a new found respect of people who move around all time or have to face changes more often than I do. I know I'm being awfully dramatic for only moving 5 miles away, but hey its my blog, so I get to write what I want ;)
All that being said I am also INCREDIBLY excited for what God has in store. Here is the part that brings that uncomfortable and fear/anxious stuff. Adjusting to a new living space in always uncomfortable and learning to live with a new person and hoping she don't notice ALL my flaws right away. But also living on campus with a whole bunch of new freshman...this I'm kinda excited for, but also praying for patience :) I'm also taking the largest number of credits I have ever taken, along with work, volunteering, and leadership stuff. Its bit overwhelming, but I don't say it to complain. Instead to say that because I will have to face my fear of doing what seems like a lot of things in my eyes. I know that all this will cause me to rely on God more. There is absolutely no way I can do any of things well without Him. When I'm not at my very weakest, it's easier for me to miss what God does. So I go into this is semester very much aware of my fleshes weakness and fear, but knowing that Jesus has walked before me preparing a way. I am so excited to see who God brings into my life and what He has to teach me and the people around me. It's going to be good :)
He promises!
So stay tuned...this fall will be full of stupid stories and lessons learned. That's it for now, I'm off to enjoy summer for one more month! :)
So I feel like all words I have been writing the last few months about living uncomfortably and facing anxiety will be things I will come face to face with in this next season of my life. I will be moving out of the beloved apartment 4. It is a lot harder than I ever expected. So much life has happened in this apartment. It is the first place I have called home since my parents house. Like when I'm on long vacations I long to come home to apt. 4. It's home, I decorated it with my roomies, I learned to cook here, I learned what being a good roommate and friend looks like, I became a real adult here. I learned to make more decisions on my own. I learned how to pay bills. I learned a deeper level of selflessness. I learned to clean a bathroom. (thanks natalie!) And many many more things. And over the last few years through every roommate change and learning all this, one amazing friend has been there the whole time. But now I have chosen to leave a place I call home and some wonderful roommates. I have a new found respect of people who move around all time or have to face changes more often than I do. I know I'm being awfully dramatic for only moving 5 miles away, but hey its my blog, so I get to write what I want ;)
All that being said I am also INCREDIBLY excited for what God has in store. Here is the part that brings that uncomfortable and fear/anxious stuff. Adjusting to a new living space in always uncomfortable and learning to live with a new person and hoping she don't notice ALL my flaws right away. But also living on campus with a whole bunch of new freshman...this I'm kinda excited for, but also praying for patience :) I'm also taking the largest number of credits I have ever taken, along with work, volunteering, and leadership stuff. Its bit overwhelming, but I don't say it to complain. Instead to say that because I will have to face my fear of doing what seems like a lot of things in my eyes. I know that all this will cause me to rely on God more. There is absolutely no way I can do any of things well without Him. When I'm not at my very weakest, it's easier for me to miss what God does. So I go into this is semester very much aware of my fleshes weakness and fear, but knowing that Jesus has walked before me preparing a way. I am so excited to see who God brings into my life and what He has to teach me and the people around me. It's going to be good :)
He promises!
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28
So stay tuned...this fall will be full of stupid stories and lessons learned. That's it for now, I'm off to enjoy summer for one more month! :)
It's sad that I looked (momentarily) for a "like" button... but really I'd like to to like the last 3 or so years. :)
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