Friday, April 1, 2011

sometimes im a dork :)

So I was reading some blogs and I really liked that they talk about life besides just orphans and Jesus. Not that these aren't honorable topics, but I thought it would be fun to just give you a picture into who I am and what I like. Most you of you know me pretty well and may know some of these things, but I thought this would be funny so here goes!
  • i LOVE chocolate, popcorn, and ice cream
  • basically the only channel i watch is the Disney channel
  • i own all the High School Musical DVDs and soundtracks
  • all the following were gifts but i cherish them: i have high school musical sheets, sweatpants, socks, and a DVD board game
  • i love chick flicks, but nothing beats a chick flick/action movie
  • I'm kinda an organized slob, but i try to keep it contained to my room
  • i have never mopped our floor in our apartment because my wonderful roommate Natalie does (thanks Natalie!)
  • i never fold my pajamas when i put them in the drawer every morning because who really cares if your pajamas are wrinkled?
  • i dream about adopting little African children
  • i dislike cleaning the toilet...really its just gross!
  • the two times i have set off the fire alarm while cooking was when i was attempting to make mac and cheese
  • i have also burnt easy mac...(forgot to add the water)
  • despite my love-hate relationship with mac and cheese i do like cooking!
  • i usually listen to at least one audrey assad song a day
  • im like reading blogs better than checking facebook...however i still manage to check facebook at least once a day ;)
  • i rarely finish books...i seriously have 5 books in my room that i have read half of, but for one reason or another have not finished...however! if i have finished it than you know its good!
So that's a little bit more about me...sometimes I'm a dork but Jesus loves me :)

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Orphans in Africa Speech

I LOVE my classes (most of the time)!!

In one class I'm learning about abuse in families, which I find sad but interesting. One day in that class I showed up and we had a speaker on human-trafficking. Needless to say I was pretty excited! We also learn about attachment issues that people have when they have undergone trauma.

In my speech class I got to give speeches about why teenage birth mothers do or don't choose adoption and how to become a foster parent. My latest assignment a persuasive speech and i choose the topic of why help ORPHANS IN AFRICA!! :) My class is well acquainted with what I want to do with my life.

For every speech you must write an outline with every word you want to say. So I thought I would post my latest assignment as just an informational on orphans in africa if you would like to read up on them.

I. United Nations Child’s Fund, better known as UNICEF, is an international organization created by the United Nations to support children in need all over the world. In 2009, they published a report indicating stating that there are around 48 million orphans in Sub-Saharan Africa.

A. 48 million is the combined population of New York State, Texas, and Tennessee

B. These orphans face many extra challenges in life.

1. Orphans are likely to have many health problems.

a. Malabika Sarker conducted a study in Uganda that was published in an international medical journal. This study showed that in a two week period orphans were sick more often than non-orphans, but did not seek medical treatment more than non-orphans.

b. When discussing this study with Karissa Hrbek, a fellow college student who spent a month working with orphans in Africa, she said that many orphans face mal-nutrition. Although they get one or two meals a day, it is usually corn mush, which has no nutrients, so their immune system is very weak. Therefore, they are more likely to die from a common cold or diarrhea.

2. According to Emma Guest, a woman who moved from England to South Africa about 15 years ago, orphans are deeply impacted by AIDS. Guest published a book in 2000 that contained stories of people she has met who are orphans or have interacted with orphans in some way. After more research she published another a few years ago. In her second book, Guest discusses how many parents die due to AIDS and their children are left homeless and forced to live on the street. These children have become known as “street children”.

a. A man who runs a non-profit organization that provides housing for street children interviewed in Guest’s book says that many street children die young answer they have no one to care for them. Some are raped, or forced into prostitution in order to survive.

b. Most street children sleep with burning sticks to keep them warm at night and they can leave burn marks.

c. Many street children are forced into child labor such as human-trafficking, household servant, or working in factories.

II. You are probably wondering how a college student can possibly help orphans living on the streets in a continent that is thousands of miles away. There are actually quite a few ways you can help.

A. You can sponsor a child, which means sending money once a month to support an orphan in Africa.

1. The Raining Season is an organization that has an orphanage in Sierra Leone, Africa. (SHOW IMAGE) Their website provides information about four different ways to sponsor a child through this organization.

a. You can provide a child with medical care for $30 a month

i. This provides daily vitamin shakes for nutrition

ii. This also includes any medication they might need and the chance to be seen by the pediatrician who comes once a month.

b. You can also provide funds for a child to get 3 meals a day for $40 a month.

c. For $40 a month you can also give a child school supplies and help pay for qualified teachers who are trained to work specifically with these children who have been orphaned.

d. For just $20 a month you can provide a child with clothes and toiletry items.

e. What is unique about this organizations sponsorship is that you can Skype with the child you are sponsoring. You can talk with them and see exactly what your money is going towards.

2. You may be thinking that you are a poor college student and are thousands of dollars in debt; you cannot afford to support a child.

a. What if you got a few of your friends together and that if you each gave $5 or $10 a month.

b. You could also cut out something like coffee on campus or eating out one night a week and set that money aside for child sponsorship.

3. By sponsoring these children in orphanages, you are allowing the organization to use their funds to buy more beds or give more to those living on the streets that they do not have room to provide housing for.

The fact that I can talk on a subject I'm passionate about and be able to see how i might someday apply what I'm learning in my classes to actually caring for orphans, makes the thousands of dollars I'm spending to sit in classroom for 4 years a bit more bearable :)

Friday, March 18, 2011

Seasons

Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous.
Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged,
for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”
Joshua 1:9

1 There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:

2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-9

I went on a walk at Ada Hayden Park tonight to watch the sunset. Two years ago I would not have thought of this to be as wonderful as I currently think sunsets and sunrises are. Then I got to thinking about how I love where I am in life right now. I love what I am learning and I love the community God has put my in. I also thought of some friends who are probably not able to say that right now. Cue the thought of seasons.

We all go through seasons. Seasons of tremendous growth, seasons of learning, seasons of application, season of pain and darkness, seasons of waiting, seasons of anxiety, and seasons of joy. I have not gone through all of these seasons, but some are definitely more enjoyable than others!

Right now I'm in the season of learning and tremendous growth. The last few years have been learning what a life sold out for Christ really looks like and that has affected my walk with God causing tremendous growth in my life.

However, I cannot stay in that season forever. I know that I will someday move into a new season. I probably come to the dreaded season of pain and darkness. Yuck! Then I got to thinking about a friend who is currently there. I thought about all the things God has taught her and how He has been sooo faithful through it. God reveals Himself through every situation and draws us closer to Him not matter where we are or what we are going through. So through a season of pain, although it will be hard, and any other season God decides to lead me through I know...

"One thing God has spoken, two things I have heard: "Power belongs to you, God, and with you, Lord, is unfailing love"; and, "You reward everyone according to what they have done." Psalm 62:11-12

When I am able to grasp this verse I can truly refuse to be fearful no matter what comes my way. He loves me and walks before me. Every where I have been and anywhere I go He has been there. He goes before us, so I walk behind Him praying that He would protect me and teach me about Him. I want to know Him more. If that means hardship (and I'm sure it will), then I pray I would have the strength to seek Him in it and trust that He is truly a good and faithful God.

Click here to see a video of one of my all time favorite songs...How He Loves Us

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

An Uncomfortable Life

You Can Have Me
The Sidewalk Prophets


If I saw You on the street
And You said come and follow Me
But I had to give up everything
All I once held dear
And all of my dreams
Would I love You enough to let go
Or would my love run dry,
When You asked for my life


When did love become unmoving?
When did love become unconsuming?


Forgetting what the world has told me
Father of love You can have me
You can have me


If Your all You claim to be
Then I'm not losing anything
So I will crawl upon my knees
Just to know the joy of suffering
I will love You enough to let go
Lord I give You my life,
I give You my life!


I want to be where You are!
I'm running into Your arms!
And I will NEVER look back!
So Jesus here is my heart!

I love this song! It is the desperate cry of my heart that I would be able to have the humility, boldness and obedience to do what is required to live this song out in my life.

This past weekend I went to a retreat to worship and learn about God about with 500 other college students from the Ames area. Jesus showed up and it was AMAZING! I wanted to blog about the main thing God taught me.

I went to a breakout session on Social Justice. They talked about the prophet Amos who I have never heard about before although it is a small book in the Old Testament. The guy speaking said that the American church was great example of the people Amos was talking too.

11 Therefore, because you trample on the poor
and exact a grain tax from him,
you will never live in the houses of cut stone
you have built;
you will never drink the wine
from the lush vineyards
you have planted.
12 For I know your crimes are many
and your sins innumerable.
They oppress the righteous, take a bribe,
and deprive the poor of justice at the gates.

So, what I gather is that we (American Christians/American in general) are INCREDIBLY blessed. Not only with material things such as food, clothing, and money, but we also have the Gospel and a Bible an arms reach away if we so desire to seek it out.
This sessions for me was motivation to try to reach out to those who have less than I do. I want to live an uncomfortable life. This means serving when I don't want to or to going somewhere that would require more of me, or giving in way that would be uncomfortable. All this because God says "Defend the weak and the fatherless; uphold the cause of the poor and the oppressed. Rescue the weak and the needy; deliver them from the hand of the wicked." Psalm 82:3-4 So I'm asking God, what do you want that to look like in my life?
I'm still working on that. I'm hoping to go to grad school and get my Masters in Social Work to get involved with adoption or whatever God's purpose is for me. I also hope to go serve at an orphanage in another country at some point. But I'm praying He would show me more what "uncomfortable" looks like in my day to day life.
I see people all around me living life uncomfortably. One of my closest friends transferred to Iowa City last year to be part of a church plant there. You can bet that was uncomfortable! Many families from Cornerstone are adopting children from Africa. One crazy family is adopting 3 kids! She was just telling me the many ways God has used their adoption to teach them and to teach others! "A generous person will be blessed, for he shares his food with the poor." Proverbs 22:9
When people step out in faith God is faithful to provide. That is how I want to see God's faithfulness in my life, but He can't do that unless I step out in faith. This doesn't mean that it will be easy or that I won't fail a time or two but God clearly states that “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9. When I mess up it is humbly. I look at the situation and see that I did one of two things: 1)did not trust God 2)did not acknowledge Him in that situation. But God's grace is sufficient however and I continue living my life, learning from my mistakes.
I keep praying that I would see God's work. I think that when I live life uncomfortably He will have more of an opportunity to do just that. He will also reveal Himself and bring glory to His name through every situation. Isn't that why I am here in the first place, to glorify His name??

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

My life

To start I want to say that my life is not my own. "Then he said to them all: “If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for me will save it. What good is it for a man to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit his very self?" Luke 9:23-25

These two blogs adequately describe how I feel right now, in terms of how I want to live my life.

This one talks about the living a life beyond the materialistic things.
  • "We have cute handbags, pretty paper, and desire gorgeous houses. Our society is consumed with superficial loveliness."
  • "And while God created true beauty, it isn’t found in home decor or luxury cars. It’s not really about perfect figures or chiseled
    appearances."
  • "There’s nothing desirous about poverty so devastating it chokes the very breath out of you. The stench of living without simple resources
    makes you want to run."
Here is a blog discribing a 20-something single mom to 13 girls in Africa. She is giving up her life to serve her daughters and following God even if it's dangerous and risky.

These women seem to really get the whole If anyone comes to me and does not hate his father and mother, his wife and children, his brothers and sisters—yes, even his own life—he cannot be my disciple. And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me cannot be my disciple" thing you know? (Luke 14:26-27)

I want my life to look like that.

Friday, February 18, 2011

Perfection and Waiting

WAIT

By Russell Kelfer

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate...
and the Master so gently said, "Wait."

"Wait? You say wait?" my indignant reply.
"Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I'm claiming your Word.

My future and all to which I relate
hangs in the balance and you tell me to wait?
I'm needing a 'yes', a go-ahead sign.
Or even a 'no,' to which I'll resign.
You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
Lord, I've been asking, and this is my cry:
I'm weary of asking! I need a reply."

Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate
as my Master replied again, "Wait."
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
and grumbled to God, "So, I'm waiting...for what?"
He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine...
and He tenderly said, "I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.

I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You'd have what you want, but you wouldn't know Me.
You'd not know the depth of My love for each saint.
You'd not know the power that I give to the faint.
You'd not learn to see through clouds of despair;
you'd not learn to trust just by knowing I'm there.
You'd not know the joy of resting in Me
when darkness and silence are all you can see.

You'd never experience the fullness of love
when the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you'd not know the depth of the beat of My heart.
The glow of My comfort late into the night,
the faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that's beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.

You'd never know should your pain quickly flee,
what it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
but oh, the loss if I lost what I'm doing in you.
So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
that the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still "WAIT."

Lately I have been thinking about perfection and waiting, Both separately and how they are related.

Waiting has taken on a new meaning to me in the last year. Not only in things happening in my world, but in the lives of people around me. It has been my observation that everyone is waiting for something.

I have personally been waiting for a day when me education will be complete and I can go do something more purposeful for orphans. If you have been following my blog or know me very at all, you may have noticed my frustration with this area, but like always God has been faithful in calming my heart. I am taking Perspectives (a class about God's view of the world). One week the speaker talked about how missions is where we are at and God has put us where we are for a reason. On the surface this does not seem earth shattering, but to me-"light bulb". I had been so focused on orphan work that I could do overseas and what that looks like in my future that I totally missed the opportunities God had given me here. I chose to think that my plans were better and that God did not know what He was doing. I would not advise this thinking because you will be unhappy and completely bashing the Creator of the universe. The good news is, He was faithful, because that is the God I serve. So although I have my moments of frustration, Jesus brings me back and shows me the wonderful things that are happening here in Ames, Iowa that I get to be a part of.

Another thing I have been learning is the idea of perfection. Sometimes I get fed up with the fact that I am indeed a sinner. I feel like I cannot do anything right and continually mess things up. But then out of no where God comes in and shows His glory in something I did. I have to stand there in awe of how He could have possibly used me to glorify Himself (trust me this is not always/ever an easy task). Shortly after this moment of awe, I soon mess up. This is the pattern of my life. BUT...that is what Jesus died for. He loved me enough to lay down His life, so that I don't have to live in pain, selfishness, and darkness.

So...I am a work in progress. I have come to term with the fact that I am not perfect, nor will I ever be. But God wants me to strive for perfection. Be perfect, therefore, as your heavenly Father is perfect. Matthew 5:48 He knows I will fail, but He wants me to try anyway. As I attempt, I become more like Jesus and that brings me the greatest joy.

So I wait for the day when I will be done with my education and I will get to do something a little more exciting with orphans. I will also wait for the day when I get to heaven and see the perfect Creator and I no longer have to struggle with sin. Through the waiting I am determined to see God in everything, no matter where I am at. I will try my hardest to be like Jesus because that is what having a relationship with Him is all about.


Wednesday, February 2, 2011

His Love

Is a very personal look into my heart and my relationship with Jesus. This is mostly just for my own processing.

Your love is extravagant
Your friendship, it is intimate
I feel I'm moving to the rhythm of Your grace
Your fragrance is intoxicating in the secret place
Cause Your love is extravagant

As I started writing this the lyrics above starting playing on pandora. These are the things Jesus does :) His love is the thing that holds me together. His friendship is extremely intimate. He has known me in my mothers womb (Psalm 139:13-14) and He has a plan specifically for me (Eph. 2:10). He loves me in a way no one in this world ever can.

God has taken my life and made it beautiful. When I came to college, I had a very small view of the world. My main concern was me. What I was going to eat, how many hours of sleep I was going to get, and doing things that I was comfortable doing. By God's truly amazing grace, the last 2 1/2 years have been a years of great transformation. They have been filled with seasons of joy, trial, fear, prayer, confusion and triumph. I have learned that through every season in life, He is there to comfort and love you. He uses scripture, His own voice, and friends to love me and point me to Him. My heart is so overwhelmed by His unbelievable faithfulness.

Here is a short bulleted list of things He has taught me:
  • I have learned about God's love for me and every single person on this earth. The way He desires me to love Him alone, is the same way He desires everyone to.
About Prayer:
  • Prayer is great way to ask Him to move mountains and being dumb founded when He does :)
  • Prayer can change lives if we let it
  • Beware, praying a lot can lead to praying some scary, intense prayers
  • It is worth waking up at the wee hours of the morning to talk with the Creator of the Universe, things will happen!
The world does not revolve around me:
  • There is a bigger picture being painted than the one I can see.
  • There is a world going on around me that I cannot see, but God wants me pray for it and be aware of it.
  • I am part of a great big family, the Body of Christ. This means serving one another in a joyous and selfless way.
  • Serving in a joyous selfless way is sometimes really hard.
  • Everything I have is His. The reason that I have everything I have, is because of Him. Therefore, I am to use it to glorify Him.
Loving Jesus means :
  • letting go of things you love very much
  • crying so hard your whole body is tingling because your heart is so broken for children and orphans that you have never met.
  • wanting to love children who have no one to love them and wrap your arms around them to share Jesus with them.
  • being willing to give up everything here, just to be able to do the above statement
Trusting God means:
  • not having all the answers (sometimes it seems like you have no answers at all), but being okay with it
  • stepping out in faith not knowing what He has in store, but being excited about it anyway
  • Changes come so that we continue to realize the blessings we have and to draw us nearer to God
I know there is more He has taught me, but this is what I have at the moment. I praise Him for wanting to teach me these things and wanting me to know His love for me.

He alone is King!