An Uncomfortable Life

You Can Have Me
The Sidewalk Prophets


If I saw You on the street
And You said come and follow Me
But I had to give up everything
All I once held dear
And all of my dreams
Would I love You enough to let go
Or would my love run dry,
When You asked for my life


When did love become unmoving?
When did love become unconsuming?


Forgetting what the world has told me
Father of love You can have me
You can have me


If Your all You claim to be
Then I'm not losing anything
So I will crawl upon my knees
Just to know the joy of suffering
I will love You enough to let go
Lord I give You my life,
I give You my life!


I want to be where You are!
I'm running into Your arms!
And I will NEVER look back!
So Jesus here is my heart!

I love this song! It is the desperate cry of my heart that I would be able to have the humility, boldness and obedience to do what is required to live this song out in my life.

This past weekend I went to a retreat to worship and learn about God about with 500 other college students from the Ames area. Jesus showed up and it was AMAZING! I wanted to blog about the main thing God taught me.

I went to a breakout session on Social Justice. They talked about the prophet Amos who I have never heard about before although it is a small book in the Old Testament. The guy speaking said that the American church was great example of the people Amos was talking too.

¹¹ Therefore, because you trample on the poor
and exact a grain tax from him,
you will never live in the houses of cut stone
you have built;
you will never drink the wine
from the lush vineyards
you have planted.

¹² For I know your crimes are many
and your sins innumerable.
They oppress the righteous, take a bribe,
and deprive the poor of justice at the gates.

So, what I gather is that we (American Christians/American in general) are INCREDIBLY blessed. Not only with material things such as food, clothing, and money, but we also have the Gospel and a Bible an arms reach away if we so desire to seek it out.

This sessions for me was motivation to try to reach out to those who have less than I do. I want to live an uncomfortable life. This means serving when I don't want to or to going somewhere that would require more of me, or giving in way that would be uncomfortable. All this because God says "Defend the weak and the fatherless; uphold the cause of the poor and the oppressed. Rescue the weak and the needy; deliver them from the hand of the wicked." Psalm 82:3-4 So I'm asking God, what do you want that to look like in my life?

I'm still working on that. I'm hoping to go to grad school and get my Masters in Social Work to get involved with adoption or whatever God's purpose is for me. I also hope to go serve at an orphanage in another country at some point. But I'm praying He would show me more what "uncomfortable" looks like in my day to day life.

I see people all around me living life uncomfortably. One of my closest friends transferred to Iowa City last year to be part of a church plant there. You can bet that was uncomfortable! Many families from Cornerstone are adopting children from Africa. One crazy family is adopting 3 kids! She was just telling me the many ways God has used their adoption to teach them and to teach others! "A generous person will be blessed, for he shares his food with the poor." Proverbs 22:9

When people step out in faith God is faithful to provide. That is how I want to see God's faithfulness in my life, but He can't do that unless I step out in faith. This doesn't mean that it will be easy or that I won't fail a time or two but God clearly states that “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” 2 Corinthians 12:9. When I mess up it is humbly. I look at the situation and see that I did one of two things: 1)did not trust God 2)did not acknowledge Him in that situation. But God's grace is sufficient however and I continue living my life, learning from my mistakes.

I keep praying that I would see God's work. I think that when I live life uncomfortably He will have more of an opportunity to do just that. He will also reveal Himself and bring glory to His name through every situation. Isn't that why I am here in the first place, to glorify His name??