He is mine...

I have nothing.  When I gave my life to Jesus, I signed over all rights to my heart, my body, my life...everything

I handed over my body and He took it and put His Holy Spirit in it.  Let me restate that...the God who created ALL THINGS put HIS SPIRIT inside me.  As for my life...He took my old life-destined for eternal torment in hell and with one breath gave me a life of joy, peace, eternity with a holy and loving God.

God, who knows the heart, showed that he accepted them by giving the Holy Spirit to them...Acts 15:8 

I have the spirit of Jesus and eternal life with Him. These are the things that I can call mine and never have to give up. All else I must count as lost.  The counting as lost thing is where I am currently struggling.  I like my stuff.  But none of it is mine. Over time they will change and/or be taken away.  The only thing I will have forever is Him.  Jesus is mine. I am His child.

I walked back to my room tonight thinking about my unknown future after I graduate in May.  I thought how "my" future is God's.  His fingerprints are on it.  As I thought this, I am suddenly struck by what I see in front of me. A beautiful pink sunset is the backdrop a majestic tree with orange and brown leaves.  'Wow God' is my first reaction.  Then I realize I had absolutely nothing do with that...I just walked into it.  So, this is how I feel about my future.  God is already working on it. I will just cling to Him and follow Him into something beautiful.

 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end. Ecclesiastes 3:11

Where I end...He begins!

My strength ended 3 assignments, 10 hours of work, and 2 courses ago.  The best news in the world is that where I end...He begins!  

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9


Do you ever pray something and think "Wow..that was a dangerous prayer.." I distinctly remember my sophomore year at a Salt Retreat asking God to use me, to wear me out for His purposes.  See...I ask God for this and then complain when He gives me what I ask for.

I feel like these last few weeks have been the biggest challenge of God answering that prayer. I gave my very best effort to complete all these tasks on my own.  For two weeks I said I was trusting God, but there was something in my heart that was still very much trying to do it on my own.  This resulted in a few slight break downs and tears.  (I have the most amazing friends who loved me through those.) I knew I couldn't do it on my own, but I gave it my very best effort!  Eventually God broke down my pride.  I had to ask Him for help and I received more than I could possibly imagine.  Crazy how He is faithful to His word.

So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. Luke 11:9

When I was driving home from work on Monday night I was thinking how I had three assignments to complete that night...(this is after I have been working hard completing 2 other assignments over the weekend.)  Obviously I was anxious about getting it all done and still being able to sleep.  Then this thought popped into my head.  I serve a God who breathed the very breath of eternal life in my body, saved me from eternity in hell. If you really meditate on these truths they will knock you over in amazement! So I truly humble myself before Him and asked for help. And it was like God was just waiting patiently for me to really humbly ask for help. And guess what? Let's just say He was super faithful and I got those assignments done in a very timely manner and got 8 hours of sleep!

So...what I have learned the last few weeks?

Life is much easier, joyful, fun, and more full of laughter when I let God help me! :)